a little honesty
"” Don’t Hold Your Breath ” by Nicole Scherzinger
This song explain simply what I felt and what was going on inside after all this time.
This isn’t about a boyfriend heartbreak, this is about giving everything you had to the someone’s or something’s and facing the consequences of being taken advantage of.
I just felt that you guys needed some honesty.
I’m so thankful for those who truly cared about me and for those who still do.
I just needed to let it out guys. Believe me, I loved performing and still do but there are things that I could never explain…
When they tell you that you’re not enough. That you quite don’t meet their standards yet. Fuck it. You don’t need that kind of negativity.
In the end it’s about being happy with who you are and what truly is important to you. That in the end, whatever they want from you isn’t important.
it’s about you.
peace, love & God Bless
-b
ps: yes. i just swore. haha i’m not perfect."
When I heard the news that shes graduating from After School, my heart was torn into pieces. Rebekah Kim. She was my bias. I love her MORE than Kahi, JungAh, Sooyoung, Juyeon, Uie, Raina, Nana, Lizzy & E-young.
The day that she said shes leaving After School & Korea.. I know that there is something fishy going on here.. & then BOOM ! she told us the truth.
The truth that I can never forget how bastard some people is. How this world has become so stupid.
To know that all the girls put a fake smile especially Bekah during the graduation photo shoot..
To know that Kahi was hurting during their last fan meet with Bekah..
To know that pledisboss pretending that his r/ship with Bekah is just fine..
Damnit !! All i want is to see my favourite idol performing ! :'(
Today, I shed a few tears yet again. It is so painful to bear with all these. Yes, I'm a kpop freak, thats why I am like this. Deal with it.
"If you think I'm coming back, dont hold your breath"
She is not coming to After School. No, she is not. I gotta start believing the truth.
I hope someday she'll comeback with a solo album. She deserves the recognition that she didn't get it during After School days.
I miss the old After School. I miss their AH, DIVA & BOY days.. Those days were the glorious days for After School & Playgirlz/boyz. With original members in it.. with Bekah in it. ahh, good days. Now the good days already gone. & I think Kahi has losing her control towards After School. No more fierce After School. We don't see that anymore.
Bekah's recent tumblr post has open my eyes. All this long, I thought Pledis is a good company. Better than SMEnt.. but actually, Pledis is just the same like SM. Or maybe even worse than SM. Pledis is not good at marketing the girls. That is why After School is getting worse. Even their concepts are getting worse. I feel like I wanna give up from being a playgirlz.. but I just can't.. Too many memories with them since 2009. Too many memories with Bekah :'(
I miss the old After School. The real korean pussycatdolls.
